I Don’t Really Know How To Do This

So, people have been telling me for a long time now that I need to start a blog. I would always respond, “Yeah ok, I will. Someday.”

Well… Today is someday. And now that the deed is done, I’m starting to think I can’t actually do this. Funny right? This is what happens to me when I try something new. I doubt myself. I tell myself I can’t do this even when I know I can. The problem is that I’m just not patient enough. I’m not patient enough to learn all the tricks. I’m not patient enough to accumulate a following. And I’m not patient enough to get on here every single day to post. I admit: I’m the most impatient person I know. It isn’t that I want instant gratification, which is what most impatient people want. No work, all results. But that’s not me at all. I can work. And results don’t inspire me.

Weird?

Yeah. That’s what I’m saying.

So why am I impatient? I think it’s because I have no faith in myself. I just don’t believe enough to commit to anything. How do you fix something like that?

I can’t remember where I heard this… but you gotta fake it till you make it. If you fake it long enough, then eventually you become it. So if I just pretend to believe in myself, maybe someday I actually will. No doubt = patience enough to allow myself to succeed at something for once. All I can do is try. But… I still don’t really know how to do this.

I guess I’ll just have to figure it out.

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